Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Uh oh

I think I am starting to get a phone stalker. Ok. Let me back up and start by explaining.

I met this guy at a party. He didn't really talk to me too much, but when he left he asked for my number... and now he won't stop calling! I will probably give him the benefit of the doubt tho... and hopefully he won't be a waste of time. Cause if so, I will probably end up frustrated and therefore forcing me to run back into the arms of an ex (Daniel) or a "backup" guy (Patrick).

I haven't been sleeping too well these days. I'm hoping it's just hormonal. But when I do sleep, it's some deep ass sleeping. I crash hard!

So, last night I hung out w/Becky and CJ. Whom I love dearly. We always have such a great time together. Never a lack of laughs and good times. Especially when Becky gets a little bit tipsy, which she totally was last night. Oh man, it was funny.
She was asking me all these questions about guys.. and if I was talking to anyone or seeing anyone. Becky and CJ really like hanging out w/other couples. So I think they are trying to couple me off. We'll see if that happens anytime soon.
Anyway, towards the end of the conversation, in her drunkenness Becky asked me if I had ever been bi-curious. Now mind you, she didn't quite put it that way, but that was her intention.
I have never even hinted towards Becky about my past curiosities. I know I never wanted to bring it up before. I mean - I know Jill would have freaked out. I don't think Becky would have/will... but then again it's just not something that comes up in every day conversation. But I could tell that when Becky brought it up, CJ became extremely uncomfortable, so I didn't really push it. I just said that there is a lot about my past I haven't brought up and maybe one day if she wants to hear it I will share it with her.
Poor Becky ... her whole thing was... "oh when you're in college, it's easy to want to 'experiment' ". Which I agree, only I never did a damn thing in college.
But it's all been so long that I have had any feelings like that, that I don't even think about it very often. I don't know. Maybe I will tell Becky.

In the meantime, we'll see what happens with everything else.

1 comment:

LaMonita said...

Admit it, deep down inside you know that the idea of making out with girls it TOTALLY HOT. Pretty much everyone knows it. If you had the perfect guy and then coupled that with the ability to kiss like a girl, well, honey I think you'd never have to question sexuality ever again...But good luck with that one. If I find him, I'll send him your way, but I'm sure I be tempted to arrange a timeshare instead...