Awkward

Let's go back 5-6 years...

It's my Senior year of college and I'm dating an older guy. OoooOOOooo. He was nice. And I was having fun. Well, during our rather tumultuous time together (he was the jealous type), the most uncomfortable thing happened. And no, I'm not talking about anal sex.

Back then I was, let's just say, commitment-phobic. I was 20-21 years old. I was about to graduate from college. I didn't know what I was going to do after I graduated (except move back home. Boo-hiss!). You know, that kinda mess.

Well, Chris (I'm telling you, Chris' and Mike's... never again!) was older and a lot more into our relationship than I was. Oh shit, I just realized he was the same age I am now. Yikes! Okay, moving on.

Back to the most uncomfortable moment. One night he was over. *cough* Ahem, you know staying over. And we're uhm... doing the hibbidy dibbidy and I said something to him (I'm a talker)... and then he said to me...

Chris: I love you, too.

Me: Wait. What? (My hands fall to my side. All movement ceasing.)

Chris: Didn't you just tell me you loved me?

Mind you, I had never said it before (to him, at least) and certainly wasn't saying it then.

Me: Uhm.... no.

Chris: Oh.

Me: (oh, shit.) I’m sorry.

Chris: No. No. It’s okay. But I mean… I do… love you.

Me: (open mouth)

Chris: It’s okay if you don’t love me yet. I mean… for now.

Me: (My mouth is still open. I sit up.) Okay.

Chris: Where are you going?

Me: (uhm, far far away from you!) To the restroom. I’ll be right back.

Uh, yeah.

Exactly.

Awkward.

Anyways I’m sure I could have handled it a lot better. But I was young and freaked out.

But let that be a lesson to you. Be careful what you say in bed. Cause you never know when they’ll hear something completely different.