Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses. Some more than others. One of my biggest flaws is that on occasion and w/absolutely no conscious thought, I will get so jealous I can't think straight. I HATE that about myself. It's an emotion I feel I should have total control over and the fact that I don't makes me so angry w/myself that I can feel my body tighten up and my left eyelid just sort of "tick" in frustration.
I mean, think about it. There is NO true logical reason for it. It serves no higher purpose. All it does is make me annoyed and on occasion miserable. And really, do we need anymore reason to be upset in this world? Is it really necessary to have something to carry in our hearts that is clearly so self-destructive? Can I think of any more negative descriptors in one paragraph? No.
Jealousy. Ah, where's a good Natalie Merchant song when you need one?
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